i've got you down, i know you by heart, and you don't even know where i start.

i bet you didn't know that i got my middle name from my dad. i bet you didn't know i haven't talked to my dad in two years four months and counting. i bet you'll never ask why. i bet you didn't know i fell off the monkey bars in the second grade and broke my wrist. i bet you didn't know i haven't gone anywhere near the monkey bars since. i bet you didn't know that i know every single word to legally blonde and bring it on. i bet you didn't know the first song i could ever sing along with was gangster's paradise. i bet you didn't know my brothers used to hate me. honestly, i bet you didn't even know i had brothers. i bet you'll never even meet them. i bet you didn't know my brother's leaving this week for afghanistan for a year. i bet you didn't know i'm scared. i bet you didn't know how close we really were before all of this happened. i bet you didn't know she hurt me. i bet you didn't know that every time i see you, my heart stops all over again. i bet you don't even think twice about it. i bet you didn't know that i prefer winter over any other season. i bet you didn't know my favorite part of the year is looking at christmas lights. i bet you didn't even know my eyes were green. i bet you didn't know i honestly thought you were worth it. i bet you didn't know my door used to be red. i bet you didn't know i've always wanted someone to paint my new door red. i bet you didn't know you're the only person who makes me nervous in a good way. and i bet you didn't know it was never really a game to me. i bet you didn't know how much i care. and i know you don't know, because i've never told you.  and i bet you didn't know that for some reason, i still think you're worth it. but you know you'll never prove me right.